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1. i think blogging in point form seems quite apt now haha considering i have an array of random unrelated things to talk about.

2. seahist was shitz haha the follies of spotting but it's okay i'm pretty sure the bell curve will do us justice (: but it made studying very not worth it haha! okay but considering i only spent the last 3 days on it, it'll do! and i feel so relaxed now that it's over cos it was probably the most content-heavy paper! now i feel like the As are going to end HAHAA

3. i am convinced that i am going to die. of this lump that has emerged in my lower back. and contrary to what the girls in class think, that it's a figment of my imagination, it's not. haha IT EXISTS. and got me all frantic and googling it. i think it might be a cyst ): but hopefully it should be benign. after all, as karen said, finding out you have a cancerous tumour is about the last thing you want in the middle of As. but i am extremely disturbed by it. i'm going to pray hard, that this is like the last time when i thought i was going to die of respiratory failure cos i couldn't breathe properly, when in actual fact i had just pulled my neck muscle which made me wheeze.

4. winnie the book has finally returned to me and i spent the afternoon looking at it, and i think i either smiled/ laughed at every entry, making me feel very happy! and today was spent practically doing nothing, and i've had some kind of epiphany. sounds a bit weird to put here so i shan't. anyway epiphanies are mostly meant for the self (:

5. haha this is bad i have no drive to study at all it's all seahist's fault! im more worried about some uni accepting me. please please please please let me get in somewhere i want ):

haha i was reading some j1's blog about class camps, and i suddenly recalled this moment, when at our class camp after the night walk, we were all sitting around in a circle watching the moon. then the facilitator said: if you all have any issues about your class i think now's the best time to thrash it out. and we all said no, there's nothing. and each of us took turns to say how wonderful we thought our class was, because we were all so bonded and how thankful we were to be in this class. and at that point i think we all really meant it sincerely.

ohwells i dont even know why that came back to me, i had thoroughly forgot that moment but it just suddenly floated into my consciousness.

haha i don't even know what i am doing reading blogs. okay seahist beckons. meisze's long-awaited notes have arrived.


and the more i think about it the more blahhh interview was. there goes my oxford dream ):

you're really HORRIBLE, you know? ):

okay photos from the past few weeks!

firstly, farewell assembly!

hahahahahhahahaa our very novel arrangement!

"不懂爱恨情愁煎熬的我们
都以为相爱就像风云的善变
相信爱一天 抵过永远
在这一刹那冻结了时间
不懂怎么表现温柔的我们
还以为殉情只是古老的传言
离愁能有多痛 痛有多浓
当梦被埋在macritchie!烟雨中
心碎了才懂"

HAHAA our birthday surprise ruined again sighhh but yay it was just so nice meeting up again for princess's birthday breakfast (:

and lina my study buddy's birthday yday!

went to clarke quay's manhatten fish market! OMG THERE WAS THIS TOTALLY TACTLESS LOUSY WAITER WHO BLATANTLY SPOILT OUR SURPRISE GOSH hahahahhaaa



at clarke quay!
at the bar we eventually ended up at haha (:

okay SEAHIST IS OFFICIALLY IN A WEEK.

and we need more of meisze's notes if not we're screwed! ):

everything feels so surreal. interviews coming, As coming, school really really ending now (in spite of the gazillion "last day of school"s we seem to have had)

and the stress is piling but i'm still waking up at 2 in the afternoon, watching ugly BETTER (haha) at night and doing silly brainless things online.

and actually there's photos to post cos there's actually been a weebit of fun going on still!

like celebrating princess's birthday at macritchie and having a failed birthday surprise again but it was so awesome sitting on the middle of the bridge to the giant pavillion and eating the breakfast stuff we brought (: (: (:

and random chats and things that keep me going.

but i dont know i think the more the As and the interview looms the less prepared i feel. and the more shit everything seems to feel.

and. i can't believe myself. still. so long after.

ohgosh sometimes i feel like i hate you so so so so much. i can't even bring myself to.

haha at least now i know to take everything you say with a pinch of salt haha because all the "soon"s, "tmr"s etc never actually come haha.

HAHA. okay everytime i feel like that i think i know i'm pmsing.

! apps is a bitch and i keep screwing them up!!
@ haha its nice to at least be graduating from RJC still (:
# it's about 15 days to seahist Oo and we need meisze's notes haha
$ studying sucks i miss hanging out with people, but obviously i can't study with my favourite hanging out ppl cos no studying will get done boo
% sometimes studying just makes you so sianz of everything you don't even feel like really talking to anyone
^ i hate maths >: (
& (before i forget) yesterday was a pretty awesomezzzz day (: chatted with loads of random ppl, had lunch with angel yay tried yong taufu for the first time hahahaha and ate again with pok nicole sam and had lots of fun taking oktomat photos (:
* got the uncle to make me my banana prata today :D how exciting hahaha
( move along move along just to make it through
) gogogo yijun!

haha i just did something that makes me think i'm moving a step in the right direction! (:

but then again, i never really know. everytime i say i am i just end up lying to myself haha

NATTAY AND YIJUN GO TO BIENNALE

disclaimer: if you're looking for photos of the artworks themselves, this is not the place for you! because this entry mainly charts our exciting but admittedly not very arty-farty experience through biennale! (:

so after a lot of postponing AHEM NO THANKS TO SOMEONEEEEE haha we finally trooped down to biennale! grabbed lunch at the basement of raffles city before going first to the exhibit at the supreme court!

we were greeted firstly by maggots and gourd faces which weren't too aesthetic haha but then saw one of our favourite pieces!


we were uber fascinated by it haha and it suited our tastes cos it was nice and colourful (we didn't like all the existentialist stuffies!) haha!


then was google earth!

and cos we kept getting giddy and lost with the circular structure, and getting wrongly directed around, it took us a long time to find.. THIS! but it was worth it yay cos it was so pretty (:

and pls this photo is damn awesomee all thanks to my fab photog skills heehee (:

yay pretty piece(: haha okay this is very unarty but we'll just admit that all our photos looks bright and happy cos those were the only artworks we liked taking photos with, and we didnt watch any installations cos the rooms were very hottt and we would get bored heehee (:

and then so we decided to had to KIDS BIENNALE! and omg so embarrassing the kids' artwork is actually REALLY AWESOMEE!!

and there was this cool windmill room so we decided to make windmills (:

yay colours so nice!
okay im getting a bit lazy i think i shall just give commentaries on the photos! OUTSIDE SUPREME COURT WOOHOO

then cos we were too thirsty and it was too hot we headed down to RAFFLES CREAMERY (again hehe) before going to south beach devt!

which was REALLY HOT but the stuffs there was pretty cool!




there are actually loads more cool ones but im REALLY LAZY and it takes ages to upload anywayyy haha but the hair salon thing was really quite cool!!

and after this lazy us took another break at gloria jeans before heading off to the marina bay one!

and this was the coolest thing there! like you can create words on the screen, and then they'll flash on the tshirt material screen thing:


SO PRETTY RIGHTZZ

okay the rest are just examples of what we mainly did haha CAMWHORE WITH PRETTY ART (:

don't we all wish that sometimes our lives would play out in front of us like a tape recorder.

we'd be in perfect control of it! replay the moments we treasure so much, pause and stop at places and times which we want to savour over and over again, fast forward the unhappy times so that we see the sunshine after the rain.

well, if only.

this period really seems to be the pits. the future seems so uncertain, and i'm getting fed up with worrying about uni apps and everything, because now the As dont even seem to matter very much anymore when pitted against the COMMON APPLICATION FORMS etc. and i'm beginning to feel this empty hollow sinking feeling everytime i check my email and worry even more.

i just can't wait for all this to be over. when i'm guarenteed a place in some place somewhere in the world, that will chart out my future and remove all these doubts and uncertainties. so FASTFORWARD pretty please.

and yet i think i can say that one year from now, no matter where i end up, i think i'll be happy! so its just very frustrating pondering your future when you know you probably have absolutely no control over it, and yet you can't help but be consumed with worry because right here right now, its seems to be such a momentous step you're going to take.

but then again, there's the whole thing about what the future really brings? we keep hoping that everything will get better, but will it truly? i remember expecting so much out of jc, but maybe the colossal vitality of our illusion was just too much for the reality of jc to live up to. (haha gatsby)

so it may be over optimistic, but i sure hope uni turns out better! after all, we all still bear hope for the future, like boats borne back ceaselessly into the past!

and you know i really feel like screaming and i feel so hopelessly helpless and everything i can't believe my carelessness has caused all this shitz.

and _______________________? i wish ______________________

RAWR.

a gazillion ): ): ): a million times over.

sometimes i think i'm just being incredibly naive! i keep wishing you'd show you still cared, even an eensy weensy teeny weeny little bit.


but i think deep down inside, i've secretly acknowledged that you never will. ever again.

overdue photos!
our stuffies waiting to get mashed up (:
bib!
sabrina!
me!
us (:

and i can't exactly remember what happened this week, but nothing much i guess?

went out with karen on thursday for shopping and food, because we were the only two delinquents who hasn't started studying again but it was really awesome it cheered me up truckloads with stupid things like going to tangs, picking out a jewellery rack and playing: guess what yijun/karen likes! and i must say we're both not bad at it (: LOVE YOU KAREN (: even though i bet you love your bff more than me >: ( hahaha

friday was class lunch at prata house, which was pretty fun and everything (: before going home to sleep i think!

saturday met jess for lunch! and it was nice catching up, considering that the last time we met was like last year Oo.

before meeting the cousin at gloria jeans at city hall! omg everyone should go there the drinks are damn cheap from 2-7! (: haha and saw quite a number of people at city hall that day! coincidentally ran into karen and auyong and ended up talking to them for like 45 minutes Oo haha! did everything but what we were supposed to do-work! haha but going out with people is always fun !

UNTIL AT NIGHT. WHEN I GOT MY STUPID ASSHOLE OF AN ALLERGIC REACTION AND FELT ABSOLUTELY MISERABLE. because i looked like "the thing" from fantastic four when i broke out in hives ):

went to the hospital to get a jab, and i was REALLY ANNOYED with the doctor, who kept anyhoe poking me in an attempt to find my vein only to conclude that my vein was too small and he couldnt find it. AFTER JABBING ME A LOT. and he wanted to attempt the same thing on the other hand only i refused to let him. rawr.

went to lina's house today to study! ohjoy when her mummy's not home because that means junkfood galore :D :D

haha was super unproductive cos we were both bored and unmotivated, only looking forward to tv and breaks! and in the end we gave up and made a list of movies that we were going to watch at our disney marathon after the As (: YIPPEEEE!

the next week promises to be quite exciting (: (: even though im supposed to be studying but heck. i think the passing of the prelims have made it seem like the exams are over! and i guess its cos they've given us a false sense of security that i feel so unmotivated.

and i realised that my blog is really boring. it's always blahblah was fun etc etc or it's me being emo about random stuff. but i guess that really about sums up my life. last week just made me realise that i NEED to be constantly occupied, whether by going out or by the banal studying. may sound either frivolous or geekish, but i guess it's really the only thing that keeps me going. because when i'm not occupied i keep thinking about the past, and it can get really horrible and upsetting. thank goodness i'm occupied most of the time.

AHHHHHH AFTER NOT GETTING IT FOR A LONG TIME I GOT SOME STUPID ALLERGIC REACTION AGAIN AND AHHHH IT HASNT BEEN THIS BAD IN AGES AND ITS DAMN FREAKING ITCHY IM BREAKING OUT IN HIVES ARGHHHHHHHHH

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